So, as I had predicted September was not as euphoric as August had been.  Part of that was due to my own dabbling in various ways to see what would and would not work in terms of adding back in foods that aren’t terribly compliant (as well as using up some foods already in the house), but some was a general bit of frustration when either my weight loss seemed to have slowed or more notably when exercise felt difficult.

The month started on a high note, and I’m so proud of the progress I’ve made with my weight.  I am very impatient about it all of course, but it is hard to complain when I’ve lost as much as I have.  Hopefully this coming Monday’s weigh-in will put me over 50 lbs of total lost weight.  I’m apprehensive about it, but I’m always apprehensive about weighing myself.  I don’t know if that feeling goes away at some point.

This month has been all about simplifying my meal planning and getting down to the most basic foods that I would enjoy eating for my life.  I like to make soup with many ingredients, but I’ve really tried to hone in on the least number of ingredients to make something I still love.  That is going well, and there have been no surprises.  I need to learn to trust myself.  I know what I works for me; I didn’t really need any big experiments to tell me that.

I’m planning to focus on food costs in October.  I want to see how much I can lower my grocery bill and still feel just as satisfied.  It will be similar to September, but I already know that my walnut milk might have to be replaced by soy or almond.  I might need to switch from lemonade to water, especially seeing as I go through so much these days.  What I want for this next chapter in my life is to simplify everything.  I want to live cheaply and gently.

I want to have all of the extra weight gone yesterday, but I just need to keep reminding myself that none of these things happen quickly.  I put in a lot of time gaining the weight; I need to give myself time to lose it.