I felt so lazy yesterday, and that feeling sort of spilled out into this morning.  I didn’t get started until 6:30am, but that wasn’t because I had slept in.  I just sort of didn’t get up, convincing myself that later would be fine too.  That may be true, but it’s not the attitude I want to have.  I went down to Prairie Rd and back, sort of grumbling about it for the first quarter mile.  But I eventually got over it and finished my walk feeling a lot better.

I’m probably doing too much again.  I worry about the way I get into projects.  I have grown to love the chaotic nature of everything, but it can all feel overwhelming.  What I really want is systems in place to make everything I want to do feel easier, even if those systems are creating a façade.  They usually are.  I have been journaling for my entire life.  It is just part of who I am, but I’m often lax about it and I have always wished I kept up with it more consistently.  I have spent 2024 setting new goals for myself at the start of each month, and sometimes they stick and sometimes they don’t.  For June, I wanted to figure out my journaling systems.  I’m 45 years into chaos, so coming up with something now might prove to be a challenge.  But of course, I went in so hard that it feels like an unbelievably huge undertaking.  I do that.  Sometimes I end up conquering the huge task, and sometimes I give up.  This one feels particularly important to me, so I want to succeed.

[Walk #77]