This morning was all about itty bitty tiny little goals. For whatever reason, I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night and woke up a little late… honestly, it could have been even later. I wouldn’t have minded so much getting sleep and having to walk later in the day. I wasn’t very motivated as a result. But I just kept setting goals as I went. I was expecting to only get in about half a mile, but I just kept telling myself to just get to the next tree, to the next driveway, to the top of the hill…. that works pretty well for me when I just don’t want to walk. And I ended up getting in my 2 miles that I like doing first thing. I still might do a little more later when I go out to the cemetery. It might be nice to do a walk around it while I’m there. I almost feel like I’m only going out to get out of the house.
As of yesterday, my legs seem to be deflating the way I had hoped. The infection probably helped actually; as long as I keep my legs elevated as often as I can, I think they should continue getting smaller. They’ve been so big for so long, I almost don’t know what to do if they shrink to a normal size. I don’t even trust that they will do that at this point. We’ll see. I was pretty obsessed with the smoothness of the back of my left leg. It had been such a weird bumpy texture, so having it smooth out yesterday was almost emotional for me.
My broccoli break continues, but everything seems a little up in the air with my food. I feel like I need to reevaluate and figure out some things. It’s not that I’m bored with things; it’s more like I’m so disinterested in food lately that I don’t care what I’m eating, and that is making it hard to want anything in particular. I am actually happy with that feeling in general, but it does leave me not eating for a long time and then getting so ravenous that I make unwise decisions. It would be better if I was making sure to eat enough throughout the day.
[Walk #71]
