I felt so lazy yesterday, and that feeling sort of spilled out into this morning. I didn’t get started until 6:30am, but that wasn’t because I had slept in. I just sort of didn’t get up, convincing myself that later would be fine too. That may be true, but it’s not the attitude I want to have. I went down to Prairie Rd and back, sort of grumbling about it for the first quarter mile. But I eventually got over it and finished my walk feeling a lot better.
I’m probably doing too much again. I worry about the way I get into projects. I have grown to love the chaotic nature of everything, but it can all feel overwhelming. What I really want is systems in place to make everything I want to do feel easier, even if those systems are creating a façade. They usually are. I have been journaling for my entire life. It is just part of who I am, but I’m often lax about it and I have always wished I kept up with it more consistently. I have spent 2024 setting new goals for myself at the start of each month, and sometimes they stick and sometimes they don’t. For June, I wanted to figure out my journaling systems. I’m 45 years into chaos, so coming up with something now might prove to be a challenge. But of course, I went in so hard that it feels like an unbelievably huge undertaking. I do that. Sometimes I end up conquering the huge task, and sometimes I give up. This one feels particularly important to me, so I want to succeed.
[Walk #77]
