Weight: 282.2 lbs

Exercise: .97 mile walk (6:25am–6:50am, ☁️62ºF/17ºC); .03 mile walk (4:19pm–4:24pm, ⛅️75ºF/24ºC) (1.00 mile total)

Mood: Good, but tired

I’ve felt chaotic lately.  That happens sometimes and it’s something I’ve learned to hate about myself, but maybe I’m approaching that all wrong.  There is an expectation to stay focused and to ease into things, but I’ve never been like that.  I go all in, to the point of excess sometimes, and I almost don’t know how to stop myself from doing so.  If I take up a new hobby, I buy everything I might ever want to use.  When I’m interested in trying some new ways of cooking a certain vegetable, I have to try all the ways I can think of, and all in one day.  I never let things settle.  And I know that it’s wrong because nobody else does that, but when I was walking this morning, I was thinking about how I kinda love that about me.  It can be problematic; it often results in money being wasted on items I’ll never use because they never come up or because I lost interest in the hobby quickly.  And I really do want to stop having so much stuff and this is not helpful.  But I love the way I go all in on new things.  Dad was like that.  I just need to figure out how to embrace that part of myself, while keeping in check the amassing of stuff.  I don’t know.

It was a beautiful morning for walking.  We had storms last night, but still the road wasn’t too muddy and I was able to walk up and down and got a good sweat going. Because of the storms, I slept very little and so I’m pretty beat already.  I’m sure I’ll get some sleep at some point today.

Food: 960 calories

• bean & veggie wraps: “hot” chili beans (umm… I think they mean ‘less spicy than normal chili beans’), steamed broccoli, steamed Brussels sprouts, low carb tortillas (2)
• apricot oatmeal
• German chocolate oatmeal
• Happy Belly SF Pink Lemonade

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